- Working and apparently pissing people off; quitting jobs over things like bias, favorites, and jobs fucking with me general.
- Becoming a major wig addict and not giving a rat’s azz what anyone says about it
- Talking a lot
- Dealing with annoying girl body problems
- Thinking about breaking up with the dude and finally doing it
- Thinking about dating women but wondering if that will be just a different headache
- Appreciating the hell out of my ‘toy’ because it doesn’t require any conversation, obligation, or vaginal pain
- Trying to get along with my mother, but realizing that it ain’t gonna happen unless I win the lotto and pay her off
I don't give a fuck, I don't give a fuck
Bitch, I don't give a fuck about you or anything that you do
Don't give a fuck about you or anything that you do
Although I was brought into this world without having any say about it, I feel forced to live embody this mindset that society says I am supposed to “have” which is to work, make money, have kids, retire, and die. But if I choose to live for different reasons why is it sooooo hard for folks to comprehend that? It seems that the more I express how I feel to others, the more isolated I become. I either get these strange looks, or the person just starts talking about making money again as if I what I said didn’t register in their brain. One psycho coworker even told me once that something was wrong with me because I didn’t want to make as much money as possible. Say what??? Of course I want to make money, but I don’t wanna work 70 and 80 hours a damn week for it!! Especially if I have to put up with mental frustration, bias, favoritism, and other types of work environment bullshyt. I don’t put up with work nonsense for too long because I know from experience that once people think they can treat you any kind of way ---- THEY.DO.NOT.STOP. It's like dealing with a bully except you getting a paycheck for the abuse. You can try to fly under the radar all you want, but once they put you in the BOX you stay in that BOX. Ain't no getting out. So because I don’t allow myself to be treated like shit for paychecks, I rather quit than have a mofo keep fuggin’ with me at work. For real.
After saying all of this, I do realize however that I can only control me. So I seriously have to ask myself, "Do I keep running away from the bullshit, or do I take the easy street and follow the others who seem to stay winning?"
So why is it weird when I say that I choose me? If I feel like you’re shittin’ on me for pleasure or being unfair to me -- I’m out. Period. Is that so wrong? People can call it silly or stupid if they want; I just feel that is exercising my freedom to choose my situation. Like I told one employer once, I am not lucky to have their job. We are lucky to have each other. I do my best work and you pay me for it, so it ain’t no damn charity happening. Therefore don’t ever feel that you’re doing me some big favor by giving me a job. I can get a paycheck from somewhere else. Even if the pay is lower, at least I’m not around you or helping your azz anymore. I OWN ME, and if that's being weird then so be it. I’m gonna be dead a long time so why not live my life now? If moving on from these shit show jobs is a way of being in control of my freedom then I'm fine with that.
As for the coworkers who live in fear and wanna talk about money all the time, I’ll just start keeping my opinions to myself because I already know that the conversation will go nowhere. We are just on different wavelengths and we just don’t mesh on this particular subject. I simply have to stop getting annoyed at these people and keep it movin’. I am a work in progress...